The Sad Decision

Pain so deep and fermented
A past filled with agony and dispare
Scars that hid away the inner beauty
Forever a feeling of loneliness remained

A time had passed when there was love
That faded away in a moment of betrayal
A Heart buried in stone for an eternity
Never to be shared with another soul

Fear surrounding the sound of peace
Emotions trapped in a shroud of fear
Never again to feel another's touch
The warmth of another's caress now like ice

The thought of love now fled in fear
Running deeper within the soul
a mask now covered a face of beauty
To show only fragments of once was there

But deep in the mind a sound could be heard
The faint beating of a heart in need
The need to be loved was fighting back
Only held in check by a cruel reality

A reality of pain, a fear of loneliness
A contradiction in emotion constantly in turmoil
The desire was there only wanting to be released
But it was clear that no one could share

No one could share the feeling hidden away
For the strength of the pain pushed it deeper away
A war waged on between heart and mind
Only to leave destruction behind

If only the cries of an aching heart could hear
Would the emotions hold strong and find a release
If only someone would come to rescue the trapped
Deep inside a torturous soul never to be loved

An echo is heard deep inside the mind
Knowing that loneliness would always mean pain
A scream in the night ached to be loved
A shiver in the cold aching to be warmed

Listen to the cries that seep from the heart
Remember the warmth of a friendly embrace
The tranquility lost in a long passionate kiss
The serenity of two entangled in love as one

Follow your heart for it knows whats best
The mind may fight but will never win
For the compassion of others will prevail
Allow the emotions to show you the way

When the taste of another lingers on your lips
Continues to fuel the desires of the heart
You will remember the reason we exist
And your fears will wither away to the past

Its easier said than to be done
As many I know embrace their pain
trapped in their own prison of fear
Never to feel the warmth again

It saddens me greatly to know of this fear
The fear that I may never feel again
But I should fight on not letting it win
The pain is weak for its easily fooled

I'll continue my journey through the night
And only hope that my freedom is near
Freedom and safety in the emotions I hide
To be able to walk with my head held high