In the Beginning....there was Prodigy

Well this may not be a short story or poem but I need to get this blog thing up and running. Let us start in the begining.

I have always had a keen sence of emotion. I may not outwardly show emotion as of late, but many things in my life have brought me down that road. Some of it being MIlitary experiences, some of it being horrific or desasterous relationships. But I have never lost the ability to read the emotions of other very well. Through the years of constantly doing it it has caused some problems. I see someone I like or admire and know that I could make that person happy if given the chance. Either the chance is never given or once I have entered their life after a while my usefullness wears off and they move on. No matter what the case may have been it has filled me with experiences that are so hard for me to keep in. I like to express my emotions, however, life has not given me the opportunity to learn to express them in what is socially acceptable. What I mean by that is when I meet someone I smother them, I rush in like a German Blitzkrieg and end up either wearing them out or wearing myself out and the relationship falls apart. SOmetimes too much too fast is a very bad thing and that is one thing I may never overcome. So this is where Hawkeye's paradise comes into play. Through my writings I am able to find a venue of release. The ability to spill my guts out on paper and not care who it effects or how. I can express love, anger, hate, fear, or sadnaess all within the confines of a few well placed words. Some of these may hit close to home to some people experiencing the same emotion as I at the moment and others may look at it and think I need some serious help. Whatever the case may be this is me. I many times wear my heart on my sleeve, but as of the last five or six years I have locked it away safe, deep in the caverns of my very being. Well I hope you find enjoyment out of anything you read here. And remember, life is short, live it to the fullest for when the day comes for you to depart this world, you depart it with what you came in it with....just yourself.